Growing Self Love

Saturday June 8th, 2024

We begin growing our garden of our heart by taking action to change our own negative thoughts and actions. We become curious about who we really are. We begin to practice active listening to understand, not to respond. We seek our authenticity through our emotional center and heart connection. We show up for ourself, acknowledge our vulnerabilities and heal them, we commit to ourself our nourishment,  our own transparency. We take accountability for our own errors, make sure to recognize the behavioral patterns within us, and apply to create behavioral changes. 

Loving self includes;

• Self integrity 
• Self trust
• Self respect
• Self consistency
• Self accountability 
• Self compassion
• Self expression
• Self esteem

**Shout out to Mary Ann in the comment section!

S-- Sacred

E-- Eternal

L-- Life

F-- Force

Who Do You Aspire To Be?

Attributes

Finding My Roots

I was so excited to have had this done. These results were done through CRI Genetics. This structure highlights info so much including dietary insights. I had mine completed in 2020 and they update as information updates. Love it!! I believe it is so critical to see the material of who you are. As we are "MATTER" we should also recognize that we "DO MATTER" . Through this I found my ancestral roots that support the spirit within this beautiful vessel. Thank you CRI Genetics for providing such a great service! 👍 👍 👍 👍 👍 

I learned that I am related to Empress Maria Theresa (1717-1780) of The Holy Roman Empire and Queen of Hungary over a forty year period.

Nicolas Copernicus (1473-1543) A philosopher who is best known for his presenting of a heliocentric model of the Universe. His book was published the date of his death.

Napoleon Bonaparte, a cunning ambitious and skilled military strategist. Self-Crowned Emperor of the French that he ruled from 1804-1814. He can be credited for the Louisiana Purchase and the discovery of the Rosetta Stone.

Queen Victoria (1819-1901) Queen of the United Kingdom of Great Britain and Ireland from 1837-1901. In 1876 adopted the additional title of Empress of India. She reigned for 63 years and 7 months until her death. Lineage traces back to Anne of Bohemia and Hungary, Emperor Maximilian ll, Marie de Medici, Emperor Ferdinand ll, Wladyslaw lV Vasa, Louis Xlll of France, Philip lV of Spain, Leopold l of Belgium, Pedro V of Portugal, Kaiser Wilhelm ll, Ferdinand l of Romania, George ll of Greece, and Carl XVl Gustaf of Sweden.

Warren Buffet, successful investor, building his empire in humble beginnings as a door to door salesman selling sodas and gum. A notable philanthropist.

Self-Appreciation

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Giving Hearts

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Finding the beautiful creator within and passing it on

After I crushed my neck at work, I was told that i would be lucky if i could do some light gardening when this was all done. That crushed me, i had dreams....goals, i liked to do things, i liked to go places. I hated gardening. What was I going to do? I've always been a very active person. I worked hard my entire life. Alanis Morrisette's song "Ironic" hitting home. I've been through many trials beginning, I'm sure, a newborn, just home from the hospital being tossed across the room into a dresser to that time getting my neck crushed just after purchasing a car I was very excited about. I was working hard to try to move up the corporate ladder....then that ladder fell. Someone told me....you need to find a hobby. A hobby? I liked baking, everything impacted my right shoulder and in turn impacted my neck, everything seemed to cause me pain. Then I began to learn to crochet....I was like okay, I can do this. A little bit at a time. Then I can.make gifts for the family. Now, it really wasn't easy at first. I watched a lot of videos and succeeded in making some gifts after acquiring a couple of simple stitches and a set of looms. I was proud of myself, even though my hand would swell up and my neck would hurt, it gave me a smidge of pride in productivity. For that I am so grateful. Even with crafting I have issues becoming stunted in my growth. I have noticed that I seem to sub-conciously block expanding the crafting. What made things neat for me, were the different styles of materials. My daughter would gift me yarn every birthday and Christmas. That helped but I would still be stunted to just doing the same things over and over again. I made lots of hats. Not so many scarves. And a handful of blankets. Blankets were difficult so I gave them up. That shoulder blade was constantly on fire, and it always felt like someone was was poking their finger into my armpit. I tried to figure out the little stuffed animals, that was a failed attempt, the crochet needle would keep flinging out of my hand randomly as i experienced sudden numbness. Regardless of the blocks, I didn't give up,but I would take long breaks for the sake of my body. The above pics are the examples of what I have been able to accomplish in the past few months. I had to shift my attention accordingly to be more productive, and I learned that my greatest productivity was in making earrings. I could make 25 pair of earrings in an hour. I would have to take a break after and sometimes my hand would be dimpling and I would shift to something else. While I was working on these things I found myself in a place of meditation and I realized how healing it was to be in a place of productivity, This past year has been extremely difficult for me. I have been spiritually raped repeatedly, both of my eardrums perforated,  one eardrum is still perforated and after a year I still haven't been able to visit an ENT. I have been gang stalked by bullies, been accused of so many things and most of them I don't even know what they are, but regardless, I have been pulling myself through the slander, gossip, and secrets. God still blessed me with beautiful visions and opened my creative gates a little more...I had started making bracelets as I was on this healing journey searching for every mode of healing I could possibly find. My mission was for my self. (Sacred energy life force ) as my good friend would teach me. To heal my body. I wasn't thinking about my mind let alone my heart and soul. The first bracelets I made I was very plain about it...then I saw another bracelet someone was wearing and I was thinking, hey, I can create some more interesting bracelets. After that, I had ordered a book and couldn't find my book mark and so I went about creating some book marks and hang some strung beads from the end. Wow those were cute with all the positivity stickers on them! I made some little fashion bags and a hanger to display all these things on. This is what I have managed to accomplish over the six months. As I continue I get better and inspired as I had so many traumas just surrounding crafting as well as working through a disability.

In the course of dealing with the healing/injury process I had this beautiful inspiration of honoring volunteerism with crafts. Crafts that could be created by people like you and me. I visualized an opportunity for those who suffer from disabilities or mental or emotional health issues and traumas a healing through crafting. As I was working towards healing and discovering what I was able to accomplish with my disabilities I stumbled upon deep seeded traumas that have been blocking my process. Through this I found a path of facing fears, dislikes, and abhorance to root out base causes that brought injury and illness. I found that creating suncatchers and princess crowns was very meditative. My mind began to explore why I had always hated this type of thing before and it completely floored me to find the truth in it. Competition, from my childhood. My mother specifically. There was always a mocking laughter and comparison for anything except for cooking as it was the one thing that she didn't like to do so it always felt like the only thing I was able to do right. I thought about what if there was a non-profit that took craft supplies and people like me would receive boxes, three crafts two of each. One craft that you love ( if you love one, one you would like to try, and one that you can't stand. With these would be a questionnaire. How did you feel while you were completing this craft, memories, frustrations, how would you do it differently,  etc. They would be able to keep the crafts that they made and if they wish to return the duplicates and filled out questionaire to exchange for another kit in the same month or gift the extras that they made for friends and family. If they return the extras they made those crafts would be utilized to honor volunteers within the community. I continued my brainstorm into the thought that this would be an excellent way for people to discover skills and desires that they have forgotten or never thought they had. All of these new ideas fall right into place with the healing vision that I was so blessed with. There is so much more, it would be an opportunity for people who have difficulty holding jobs or communicating to explore and find their niche in a meditative, relaxing and non-pressuring environment. Allowing the mind to grow in its natural pace and the body to heal in its natural time. 

Creating a Comfortable Safe Space

I've been being relentlessly stalked for some time now. I used to love to go outside be in nature, revive/restore against a tree. Did you know that hugging a tree or simply leaning against one for more than 15 minutes can relax you naturally? I like to listen to Shamanic drum music while I do. I was spending time doing that and it felt so good, so relaxing, there are current studies showing that more than fifteen minutes can assist in repairing and restoring neuro pathways. I need more of this but at this time it is not possible. So, I created this safe comfy space to cozy up and cry in when I'm feeling positively sad 😆

Creating Zen Space

Bringing the outdoors in. I've been accused of witchcraft because of this space. It is an abhorant lie. I love nature and everything about the beauty of this space, the sound of the water fountain, the smell of the incense,  the way nothing matches, but it does. That is nature and it does not receive the appreciation and respect it deserves. Honoring nature is not worship. I worship the Most High Spirit of the Universe from whom ALL things are formed. Not rocks, materials, etc... I HONOR ALL things as they spring forth from the Great Creator, for The Great Creator Creates Great things.

Ancient Art of Scrying

Oracle reading by Mary Moses, forrest fairy Oracle on TikTok and Instagram

Who Am I?

I am an incredibly beautiful, artistic, hard working, talented, tenacious, diligent, outstanding, creative, intelligent,  ever-evolving, ever-growing woman!

• I am my peace
• I am my harmony
• I am my heart
• I am my love
• I am my bliss
• I am my life
• I am my soul
• I am my spirit
• I am my strength
• I am my hero
• I am a gift
• I am gifted
• I am the wind beneath my wings 🪽 🎶 🤣 🤣 

Ancient Art of Scrying

Oracle reading by Mary Moses, forrest fairy Oracle on TikTok and Instagram