Love & Lies

I never recognized the grooming that was happening in my family until the memory of my father's action came forward. Then it was so much it became overwhelming. I thought maybe I could talk to my favorite aunt about it. Lol, I found out that she was part of all this bullying along with the rest of the family, so ashamed they put me aside when I had all of these lumps on my head caused from medication, instead of advocating they stamped me with "crazy" and wished me away. Guess what....haha, I'm still here! The walls are crumbling, you shouldn't have lied, you should have told the truth. I'll give my brother this much, at least he apologized. In this whole time, only two people have apologized to me and only one of them was family (my brother). I recollect a time when my eldest daughter was giving birth to her first son, I had to catch a flight from Juneau to Anchorage and the flight was delayed, stuck out on the tarmac for several hours hoping I would make it in time both excited and anxious about becoming Nana. My flight arrived at Anchorage and everyone was so kind they let me pass everyone to exit the plane first. I got to the hospital and there was still a bit of time, not much, but I did make it. I was so grateful 🙏  my mother was there excited as well, she asked me, what are you gonna have him call you? I replied, well, "You're Grammy and Gram is Gram, so.....I think i will have him call me Nana, I like Nana". She had bought a little book and all of that. Fast forward to when my grandson was young, she starts having him call her Nana, I said, why did you even bother to ask me what I was gonna go by if you were just going to use it yourself? I didn't understand at all, oh he did it she said. I didn't believe her. Then my other grandson came and she did the same thing with him. Now I know, I see your grooming for a scapegoat. I denounce you as a mother. What you have done to divide and seperate this family is evil, pure evil. You are undeserving of forgiveness yet I will bestow it, regardless. Let it be known that this woman should have "no contact" with children. She is abusive and utilizes children to benefit herself and her own twisted desires. That being said. She had a foster care license when I was young, hers was revoked for abuse.....hmmmm, there is proof of that. 

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