Pic,c.12/2015

This is a picture of myself and my girls, less than a month before my neck was crushed in a work injury. Through the process of this injury, this family has been destroyed. Truth about love. Knowing that when people (my children) would lie, steal, cheat, manipulate, conspire, take money and bribes and backstab someone who has supported, fought for, and loved them unconditionally. I can honestly say after all of this, I NEVER want to see them again. In fact, I have sacrificed over and over again for these selfish, greedy, ungrateful, rude, obnoxious little liars and have practiced great patience. That is a demonstration of love. My FATHER licked me when I was little, when he changed my diaper, I remember, I remember my mother calling him a pervert. He didn't see anything wrong with what he did as he said he did it to his sisters when he changed them. This memory just came forward to me right before Christmas, this past holiday season. He said, "what if I just tickle her with my whiskers on my chin?" I remember the disgust in her voice and the look on her face. Now I know why I was ALWAYS viewed as "the competition" this action birthed a nightly "tuck-in" routine of a "kiss, a hug, and a belly rub" as well as the words "I will take you for everything you have" whenever there was an extreme argument. I was the sacrifice for her stability and I felt the pain of that my entire life with her jealousy. It's amazing how we can be brainwashed into memory distortion. When I left the state I grew up in to flee from my extremely violent ex husband who had threatened to kill me and my children if he couldn't have me, we had been split up since May of 94 as he had laid hands on my child and was calling her an "effing little C-word" and banging her little 5 year old head against the bottom of the sofa for making a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and not wiping the crumbs off the counter.I took my kids and left. Called his mother to get him out of the apartment. He came back once and stole my car, then came again to remove the oil pan from the bottom of the car, then he called and said he had a gun, thats when I sold everything I could, got one way tickets for a flight, and moved out of state. I lived in a shelter for three weeks, a motel for a month, and then got a house. My mother told me before I left that she was never going to see me or her grandkids again, I told her that she could come visit, she had money. She told me that there was nothing for her where I was going. I remember replying "what about me and the girls" she closed her eyes, shook her head and said, "no, nothing" SMH, wow, didn't matter the danger and the threats. He had always said if I got him arrested, he would kill me, I believed him. I'd been knocked around enough by him, I had no desire to push my luck and I needed to protect my children. There were times that I did not eat so that my kids could eat, there were times that I skipped meals so they had more. Mothers don't typically share their sacrifices with their children because we don't want our children feel bad. But maybe they should know? With this, I say, there is no excuse for the lies, no excuse for the manipulations, I forgive you and and right along with that forgiveness I now forget you all and put you in my past. Only speaking the truth will right wrongs, only speaking the truth can break illusions. I have been patiently waiting for truth to be recognized for years and am reconciling the fact that I am the one who needs to stand up and shout it out! So here it is people...the truth! Polygraph me! To my aunts, someone should have stood up and done the right thing. Forgive & forget. I forgive you and now I forget you. Bye

This is not the end of my trauma reconciliation.

Know that I have documentation that proves my innocence in all accusations of abuse and neglect, I was investigated thouroughly by the state and was licensed for foster care in 2014 by the state. So, if there is documentation that expresses something that would be opposite to their finding, know that it was altered or doctored. It's better for all if people would stop believing lies. Consider the source and the purpose behind said source and seek discernment.

My psychiatric evaluation documentation proves sanity.

I have demonstrated so much love, patience, and mercy through this time of wrongful persecution, it's time you all face justice. God's grace and mercy be upon you all.